So overwhelmed by the sweet, sweet love of the Lord lately, He’s been showing me once again how He’s not just the God of the big miracles and wonders, He’s the God of the littlest things. From the cells on my skin to every strand of hair on my head, there’s nothing He’s doesn’t know and there’s nothing about me He doesn’t care about. So sweet, just with one small gesture of love I cried buckets of tears just so overwhelmed by how much He, the great I AM, would care so much for me to go out of the way to do that for me. He knew I was kinda sad to have to leave the Leaders Retreat early, and the moment I stood up to leave reluctantly Elvin led “I will run to you” by Hillsong….. it made me cry immediately. How rarely is this song played in church yet every time it is led it’s always at a time where I need His comfort, this song being the song for my life and the very first song through which I encountered God for the first time as a five year old. I felt God tell me He cares even about my slightest disappointments (I wasn’t like THAT sad about leaving, though I was kinda disappointed cos it wasn’t yet 5pm, and i had to miss worship and session) and that He’s with me and that He has always been with me from the first time I encountered Him till today… because of the song He put in Elvin’s heart to be led, God showed me that from beginning to end He will be there. That He loves me, cares for me, that I am a beloved daughter to Him…
Leaders Retreat was such a blessing to me as God began to inspire, challenge and increase my faith. I can say with absolute certainty that my faith has increased since the retreat! And I still am humbled by His grace given to me, because I know that it is by grace that the Holy Spirit causes us to approach Him and draw near to Him, and to dwell in His courts (Psalms 65:4). There is nothing more beautiful, more loving, more lovely than Jesus. I got extra notes from the leaders retreat for my disciples and Hua An as well, because I’m believing for them to become leaders one day, and when they do I’ll be able to pass them the notes. :) Because of how the messages preached in those three days really helped me grow exponentially I want them to receive them too when they become leaders - I let them know I believe in them for leadership, and I really am excited to see how they’re going to rise up in time to lead their generation and even surpass all I could ever be or do.
I want to thank God for so many things… for how He’s let Jaslyn go for encounter even though the situation looked almost impossible, for how He broke through for me in that I’m able to go for camp this year AND book a cheap flight AND without having to pay a cent (there were some problems and opposition initially), for how He’s used me to speak to Hua An and break through in his life (there are many nuances to this, but yes Hua An has decided to go for Sunday services again!), for how He’s used me to speak to Eileen and she agreed to start discipling lessons (she didn’t want to do the lessons at first), for how my mum suddenly decided to give me a job teaching Gwen tuition (LOL!) for a pretty good pay, for using me to speak to Haneef about some stuff in his camp and I’m so happy and blessed to hear from his reply, for putting a vision in my head and a new song in my heart, for everything!!!
I’m believing in faith for the multiplication of NUS net before 2014 ends, for revival in EVERY faculty in NUS, for all my disciples to become leaders (specifically Jaslyn by 2014/ 2015), for leaders to rise up in NUS net before 2014 ends and for the salvation of specific friends before 2013 ends. Agree in prayer for these things with me, and let’s rejoice at His faithfulness when these things come to pass! :)
I’ve also officially kinda passed out of TPY net, cos I’ve gotta focus on NUS net. Gonna miss those guys so much, but I know they’re going to be in good hands, and I’m able to visit once in a while anyway :) Thankful for the farewell party they threw for me! CUPCAKES!!!
Lastly, I told Gwen we were gonna do devotions together every night from today and SHE AGREED! I’m so happy! It’s time to start discipling the younger generation. I know God has plans for 10 year olds too!!
At the end of the day, I’m just so grateful and humbled by everything God has done for me, for how He loves me. I just love Jesus so much… no one else loves me like He does. There’s no one like Him.