It never stops being amazing to me how God knows everything in my heart… and I love worship so much. I love worshipping God because when I lift Him up in my life above all my struggles, my pain, my needs and circumstances I fulfil the whole purpose of my existence - to bring Him glory, to build His Kingdom in this world, in my life. I find His presence where I consecrate myself in humility to Him, God just KNOWS everything about me - He knows what gets to me, what comforts me, He knows what to say, He knows what I need. How are there enough words to explain how God knows EVERYTHING about you? How God provided in so many forms when I was in need… how getting into His presence makes every day look like a new opportunity for overcoming… how suddenly my heart no longer feels like its hurting but wholly fulfilled in the light of His glory and grace

Whenever I feel bad everything doesn’t hurt me so much anymore when I touch even just the edge of His robe

So overwhelmed by the sweet, sweet love of the Lord lately, He’s been showing me once again how He’s not just the God of the big miracles and wonders, He’s the God of the littlest things. From the cells on my skin to every strand of hair on my head, there’s nothing He’s doesn’t know and there’s nothing about me He doesn’t care about. So sweet, just with one small gesture of love I cried buckets of tears just so overwhelmed by how much He, the great I AM, would care so much for me to go out of the way to do that for me. He knew I was kinda sad to have to leave the Leaders Retreat early, and the moment I stood up to leave reluctantly Elvin led “I will run to you” by Hillsong….. it made me cry immediately. How rarely is this song played in church yet every time it is led it’s always at a time where I need His comfort, this song being the song for my life and the very first song through which I encountered God for the first time as a five year old. I felt God tell me He cares even about my slightest disappointments (I wasn’t like THAT sad about leaving, though I was kinda disappointed cos it wasn’t yet 5pm, and i had to miss worship and session) and that He’s with me and that He has always been with me from the first time I encountered Him till today… because of the song He put in Elvin’s heart to be led, God showed me that from beginning to end He will be there. That He loves me, cares for me, that I am a beloved daughter to Him…

Leaders Retreat was such a blessing to me as God began to inspire, challenge and increase my faith. I can say with absolute certainty that my faith has increased since the retreat! And I still am humbled by His grace given to me, because I know that it is by grace that the Holy Spirit causes us to approach Him and draw near to Him, and to dwell in His courts (Psalms 65:4). There is nothing more beautiful, more loving, more lovely than Jesus. I got extra notes from the leaders retreat for my disciples and Hua An as well, because I’m believing for them to become leaders one day, and when they do I’ll be able to pass them the notes. :) Because of how the messages preached in those three days really helped me grow exponentially I want them to receive them too when they become leaders - I let them know I believe in them for leadership, and I really am excited to see how they’re going to rise up in time to lead their generation and even surpass all I could ever be or do.

I want to thank God for so many things… for how He’s let Jaslyn go for encounter even though the situation looked almost impossible, for how He broke through for me in that I’m able to go for camp this year AND book a cheap flight AND without having to pay a cent (there were some problems and opposition initially), for how He’s used me to speak to Hua An and break through in his life (there are many nuances to this, but yes Hua An has decided to go for Sunday services again!), for how He’s used me to speak to Eileen and she agreed to start discipling lessons (she didn’t want to do the lessons at first), for how my mum suddenly decided to give me a job teaching Gwen tuition (LOL!) for a pretty good pay, for using me to speak to Haneef about some stuff in his camp and I’m so happy and blessed to hear from his reply, for putting a vision in my head and a new song in my heart, for everything!!!

I’m believing in faith for the multiplication of NUS net before 2014 ends, for revival in EVERY faculty in NUS, for all my disciples to become leaders (specifically Jaslyn by 2014/ 2015), for leaders to rise up in NUS net before 2014 ends and for the salvation of specific friends before 2013 ends. Agree in prayer for these things with me, and let’s rejoice at His faithfulness when these things come to pass! :)

I’ve also officially kinda passed out of TPY net, cos I’ve gotta focus on NUS net. Gonna miss those guys so much, but I know they’re going to be in good hands, and I’m able to visit once in a while anyway :) Thankful for the farewell party they threw for me! CUPCAKES!!!

Lastly, I told Gwen we were gonna do devotions together every night from today and SHE AGREED! I’m so happy! It’s time to start discipling the younger generation. I know God has plans for 10 year olds too!!

At the end of the day, I’m just so grateful and humbled by everything God has done for me, for how He loves me. I just love Jesus so much… no one else loves me like He does. There’s no one like Him.

I JUST NEED TO DANCE AND PRAISE NOW!!!! I LOVE YOU JESUS - SO IN LOVE, SO BLESSED, IT’S UNCONTAINABLE!

God is so amazing!! He is ALIVE and He HEALS!!! So much to type again here, so just read about it at hillarykimeya.blogspot.sg haha :)

On a side note, was unable to sleep (kept sleeping and waking) and had many nightmares last night… woke up a little shaken but I’m not going to be afraid!

For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline. 2 Tim 1:7 

I only fear the Lord my God! And He encourages me…

Here on earth you will have many trials and sorrows. But take heart, because I have overcome the world. John 16:33b

The wicked plot against the righteous and gnash their teeth at them; but the Lord laughs at the wicked, for He knows their day is coming…the Lord makes firm the steps of the one who delights in Him; though he may stumble, he will not fall, for the Lord upholds him with His hand…the wicked lie in wait for the righteous, intent on putting them to death; but the Lord will not leave them in the power of the wicked or let them be condemned when brought to trial. Psalm 37:12,13, 23, 24, 32, 33

God loves me! And if God is for me, who can be against me?

We usually look at the cross in Jesus’ perspective, but if you looked at it in God the Father’s shoes you’ll come to find that the cross wasn’t painful just for Jesus… John 3:16 says that GOD gave up His Son, and when Jesus hung on the cross God had to turn away. It sounds simple but if you’ve really loved anyone or if you’re a parent you’ll know that merely watching/ knowing they’re suffering and slowly dying (much less, unjustly) breaks your heart unbearably… and yet you’d not only have to know, you’d have to turn away. It actually really is heartbreaking. Yet no matter what the cost, literally, the pain of the Father < His love for me…

Sometimes I think I’m seriously the worst and times like that I don’t even like myself. Why does God like me? It’s amazing how God can love us just the way we are.

I’m seeing the path now, God…

and I surrender every thing to You everyday as You’re teaching me Your ways

We fall down, we lay our crowns at the feet of the only One who actually ever deserves any glory

“Stop and discern. Realize that you have stepped into a new spiritual flow. You are leaving behind the chaos and difficulty of the past week, and you will now have greater freedom and clarity. You will be able to deal more effectively with any trauma you sustained in that period of transition. I am releasing you into an anointing of ease if you will receive it by faith. Stop, don’t do anything, but be still and know that I am God.”

John 14:27 “Peace I leave with you, My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.”

These days I’ve been thinking, I seriously gotta stop eating like a pig. I’m hitting 20 this year and before I know it my metabolism is going to slow down and disaster will strike; and I don’t even exercise at all! If you don’t wanna gain weight/ be unhealthy you need to watch your diet and start exercising Hillary! No more pigging outttttttttttttt

Goodbye pig out sessions, you were lovely while you lasted for 20 years

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