"Never going back to okay. Never going back to easy."
"Stay single until someone actually compliments your life in a way that makes it better not to be single. If not, it’s not worth it."
Howdy! It’s been a while since I last posted :) sooooo here’s an update since the last one!
- met up with Laiyin after school to shop/ have dinner
- met up with Hanee for dinner
- met up with Adilia for coffee before net
- met up with Wendy for ice cream/ recorded crazy MVs at my home lol
- met up with John and Hua An for lunch at DTF
- met up with Gab for dinner
- played the keys for worship at the edge for the first time!
- witnessed my net member’s baptism
- had net outreach
- surprised chewmin with the girls
- went to Laiyin’s house for Korean lunch/ RM and surprised chewmin again
- met up with Joseph cos he’s enlisting soon
- met up with Meizhen for dinner
- impromptu meet up with Cheryl for dinner/ collect stuff in town/ movie
- met up with Christina in NUS for lunch
- met up with NUS net peeps for dinner and chill out at utown
- started teaching tuition
- ordered coffee from The Coffee House for the first time and loved it!!!
Glacier National Park ,MT
"During a time worthy of loving, to be able to meet someone worth loving is something extraordinary."
I’m thankful for my net - and even more thankful for a faithful God who’s grown this net from its 3 people (including me) meeting in week 1 to today’s 8 people (only counting the regular ones), and 13 people at outreach last Friday.
Thankful that in April we had 1 salvation, meeting the goal for that quarter. Thankful at GGB edge outreach we met our goal of having 1 invitee each member and had a total of 7 visitors and 1 salvation - meeting the goal of 1 salvation in the month of July. Thankful that at 180 edge outreach we had 13 invitees and 3 salvations! Out of these 5 salvations so far, 3 of them are now regular members at net. Sylvia is still consolidating with her 2 friends who responded at 180.
I have so much to be thankful for, and it may very well seem like I’m asking for a beating saying this, but I wanna be honest about the struggles too. It’s not always easy and it’s not always a bed of roses - I’ve found that what keeps a leader going really isn’t about the fruitfulness, but having good followers! Training up members to become leaders and being patient with different things that happen along the way is proving to be more demanding than expected. And as much as I could pray and ask God to help me persist on and pray that He does something in every member’s heart, I can’t blame every difficulty on my members. I acknowledge my many weaknesses too. While praying the night before I asked God what I should do and this was what I found - leaders can’t just lead with actions and words (basically working for them, setting an example, teaching them, mentoring them with street e/ prayer walks etc), but leaders must love. I always thought I loved my members! As I reflected and thought it through I found it was true - I need to LOVE them, and not just lead them because only love can reach into the deepest parts of a human heart and that’s where life springs forth, where words and actions come from, where change and growth will start from too. Towards my net, I am sorry for how I loved less than I should have, and I am still trying to be a better friend and leader!
Then I asked Him how I could love them and His answer was so simple. You can only give God’s kind of love when you have been filled with God’s love! Some times we get so busy doing and praying for other things we forget to stop and be refreshed and filled again. We can’t keep pouring and pouring without breaks. I needed to go back to being filled with love - not just asking for strength to hang on through the tests, grace to overcome, peace in times of confusion etc, but more than all that, for the love of God to fill me again because I’ve poured out and used up what was last put into my heart. What does the bible say about love?
Love is patient, love is kind, it is not envious. Love does not brag, it is not puffed up. It is not rude, it is not self-serving, it is not easily angered or resentful. It is not glad about injustice, but rejoices in the truth. It bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never ends.
If I only have God’s perfect love filling every bit and corner of my imperfect heart, I can endure and overcome all things. Works without love just cannot lead to good things fulfilled in true completion. It’s like a tree that produces fruit but the fruits have no seeds in them - there are good things but they’re not complete, there is no true fulfillment of what God had planned! As a servant of God, I want to give my best for everything He’s put in my hands. There’s been so many times I felt like giving up, but I know I shouldn’t and I won’t… I believe that even as I continue to pursue and dwell in His love, He will make all things beautiful and complete in goodness and in fulfillment of His plans in His time.
"Lord, you are our father. We are the clay, and you are our potter; we are all the product of your labor." Isaiah 64:8
"Enter His gates with joy and thanksgiving! Don’t let anything distract you from your greatest Love!"