The word brokenness may strike fear in some people, but it’s really not a bad word. God doesn’t desire to break our spirits, but He wants to break that outer shell, the flesh that prevents Him from being all He wants to be in and through us. He wants to break off things like pride, rebellion, selfishness and independence. God wants us to be totally dependent on Him, and suffering seems to bring us to that point.
Sunday with a crazy bunch
Monday with another crazy bunch to celebrate Nic’s 25th! What an epic fun start to the week!! Dinner + chats + funny Christmas photo booth + Rochor tauhuey + taiti + many good friends 😊
Can you believe it - Christmas is almost a month away!!!!! So excited!!!!!!! :)
Haven’t updated in so long! Some snaps of -
Last last Saturday’s experiment with thicker darker eyebrows
Clearing my wardrobe to sell off clothes (please support!! I’m at Carousell under the username hillarykimeya)
Gwen cooked lunch for all of us!
Nat’s birthday, Gwen’s diabolical declaration. Happy 17th birthday nat!!! Message was on Instagram won’t type again here :)
Super relaxed weekdays
BFF Beverly came for service on sat! Super happy cos she said she feels God’s presence every time she comes!
Crazy friend Arthur
I love birthdays!!! Birthday cake whoooopeeeee
Last Sunday -
Explored Haji Lane’s pretty shops with some others after service! Enjoyed our leisurely time spent without any rush :) I was so surprised (I might have been the only one who didn’t know) that there was no evening service and it felt weird to not be at the service on a Sunday evening! But it was a good break, managed to breathe and spend some unrushed Sunday time with my friends :)
Exam. Hence no pictures! Went to school, did the paper, went home to watch dramas and sleep
Jap dinner with Jonathan and Seokyin (NUS net members)! Super filling and enjoyed my time chatting and laughing with them :) super big portion as shown in the picture! Very worth the price!
Exam. Went to school, did the paper, met up with Lekchia for lunch at the science faculty! Ended up chatting for ~3 hours unexpectedly! Met Chewmin after that to train down to toa payoh… We spent time chatting till it was time for net! Gotta say I’m so thankful for this bestie too, she’s such a joy and blessing in my life. Can’t imagine how my life would be without her! Went for steamboat outreach with the toa payoh net at night and I really enjoyed the food and company!! Super timely steamboat cos it rained that day yayyyy :) and had the honor of leading one of the two visitors in the salvation prayer. Best moment of the day EVER!!!!!! Super thankful and happy!!
Well-spent afternoon jamming with the edge conference band! Love this bunch and really enjoy their company :) very thankful that God put me right where I am because every single one of them are inspirations and role models to me; friends who are “on the same channel” (cos we’re all in worship ministry and are somewhat similar in certain aspects relating to that and can also connect with me on a certain spiritual level!) and are easy to just have fun and chat with :) I have grown over time to be comfortable and grown in love for all the people in the ministry and I’m so thankful for the honor of serving God and His people in this way; and for how I receive from Him even as I serve too. So much joy!
Met up with Wendy after that to shop, catch Ender’s Game and take polaroid shots! What a lovely friend and I really enjoy spending time with her :) Though big damage to my wallet thanks to shopping hahaha (omg!) no more shopping till December seriously!!!
Till the next post~
Sorry about the lack of updates!!
Last week -
Last day of social work lectures with Paul! We survived the sem!! :) also bought NUS FASS hoodies with Seokyin before net!
Happy anniversary to my parents too! LOVE the bouquet dad bought :D even though it’s not for me but still heehee
Also very happy that bev and amellia came to the edge with me! Bev also said after service that she felt very joyful, me too! In His presence is fullness of joy and pleasures forevermore :) God is really really good to us…
Bev also bought me happy hippos! Random surprises/ small gifts like these are so sweet because they’re so full of love and thoughtful!! Gotta love my bestie.
Went with Gwen to pick up my pay check on Friday (turns out the office/ HQ was right behind my house LOL)!! Yayyyyy :)))
Sunday - led worship at cw with nic and was SUPER DUPER refreshed!!!! Felt super tired and meh when I went in to prepare with him (cw’s in the movie theatre) but I was very blessed by him too, felt my spirit wake up as he played 10,000 Reasons and The Anthem over the sound system (I LOVE the two songs) and was so encouraged! Gained supernatural strength to lead as I led and was blessed. Left feeling energized, refreshed and joyful. :)
Lastly, dyed my hair! Shows under certain light (no edits to the photo) and that’s good cos I don’t wanna walk around with my hair color that light all the time!!
God says yes and I know that I’m blessed
Yes got a heart that’s at rest
Yes and a future that’s sealed
Yes if I’m healed then I’m healed
I’m not afraid of circumstances
'Cos I, I've already found the answers
In Christ all of God’s promises
Are yes, yes and amen
Now’s the time to let faith win
God has placed His promises
In the center of His will
Seek His kingdom and His ways
All the power of heaven
Is yours to call today
All God’s promises
Are yes and amen
Celebrate God’s promises
Yes and amen!
I am eternally grateful for You
I am eternally grateful for all You’ve done in me
All You’ve done through me
All You’ve done for me…
I am so grateful and thankful for the mercy You have shown me in my life
The grace that You have freely poured out upon the undeserving person that I am
And the unconditional love that so generously and unceasingly embraced me in every moment
What would I be without You
What can I do without You
Where can I go without You
I know I’m still in the process of growing
But every small victory is a big reflection of Your mercy
Your love for me, how You care for me
And I’m eternally grateful for every small victory
I would have never overcome without You
New seasons are always uncomfortable at the start,
but bear fruits if the branch remains connected to the vine.
"I am the vine; you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing." John 15:5
God has a set time for your opportunity. There is a set time for that problem to turn around, a set time for your healing, your promotion, your breakthrough. It may be tomorrow, or next week, or five years from now. But when you understand the time has already been set, it takes all the pressure off. You won’t live worried, wondering when this is ever going to happen. You’ll relax and enjoy your life knowing that the promise has already been scheduled and your answer is on the way.
One day, one encounter with God later, I began to truly understand that without God, I can absolutely do nothing. And I can absolutely not overcome anything by my own strength.
Like a hamster in a wheel I’ll always end up right where I started… And like sand in a hand I will never truly grasp hold of my victory.
Moral of the story - always, always depend on God. Acknowledge Him, and switch off your own understanding.
#lookingbackintime #goodreminderforthefuture #loveyouJesus #alwaysfaithful
Let’s take one day at a time!!!!! Gonna be holidays soon! And everything’s gonna get better. It always will.
And God has called me to be an overcomer
Not a coward or a weakling
For a child of God does not have those genes
We carry the DNA of the Overcomer
The Victorious One
I won’t be taken down
Not so easily
Let the spirit rule the soul
Find peace in His presence
Realize that it will never be too much to bear
He will never allow it - His love is far too great
And remember that all things work together for the good of those who love Him
New seasons of life are always uncomfortable at the start…
But it produces fruit when the branch remains connected to the vine
When the walls close in around me
Let Your glory light the darkness of my night
When the suffering’s all that I see
May I walk with You by faith and not by sight
On the throne of sweet surrender
I have nothing but to offer You my life
Greater love I have not found it
Oh by mercy You have eased this troubled mind
Open hearted I will search and I will find
Sin is broken
The lost now chosen
The Father’s heart
Humble king You go before me
By Your grace I stand for everything that’s true
Through Your Son I am made worthy
There’s no other who can love me like You do
And forever I keep running back to You
You reign in all the earth
// For I am the LORD, your God, who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear; I will help you. Isaiah 41:13
// You keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on you, because he trusts in you. Isaiah 26:3
10 years ago we were kinda like BFFs in the same clique in primary school but when our classes changed, somehow we stopped talking and for the next 6 years we were in the same school but there was no conversation because our worlds just didn’t converge. We turned out to have more and more mutual friends over the years even in JC when we both went to different schools. We’ve been connected on social media for over half a decade - aware of each other’s existence but again, never talked. Strange that 10 years later since we last talked I’d have a dream about you - that we both became good friends again. I don’t know how I’m supposed to start talking to someone again after 10 years….. Omggggggg
Here’s a post for me and you
To the days when we faced difficult times
And the days I feared I wouldn’t be able to go on
The days I held back tears and told no one
When my heart felt ripples of pain
The week I’ll never forget all my life
The songs I would sing, grit my teeth, force myself on
The nightmares I had that made me cry
The faithful God who stuck closer than ever and kept me strong
Those moments at the crossroads I couldn’t figure out
And the dulling pain that slowly faded but never went away
And the scars that will always remain
I remember weeping, crying out to Jesus
Fears overwhelming my heart… how will I go on from here, I asked
I don’t know how it happened
But i’m right here now
I don’t know what happened
But i’m not the same either
I don’t know much
The most painful moments of my life turned out to be
Bitter, good medicine for me.